So Far.. Learning

I am posting my lessons in learning as they happened exactly a week ago. Saturday I posted something I had written the Saturday before; today I am posting an entry I wrote in my journal precisely a week ago. I will continue all of my posts in this fashion.

So far, learning about space. I've had to tell myself, "No, I will not make space for anger," "No, I don't have space to argue." I did that 3 times Saturday alone, then Anaro and I had to talk out something. Learned that day to choose my arguments. I don't need to fight or get angry over silly things, but, some things you do need to work through. Communication.

Since Saturday, it's been harder. Sunday, I learned about frustration. Frustration is worse than anger. If I make room for frustration, no only does it take that space, but I become exasperated in other things as well. Frustration overflows in to spaces holding better things. Do not get frustrated.

The last one is worry. This is one of the hardest. It snow balls. Unlike frustration, where it overflows, worry just asks you to make a little space here, then a little one there, until you are riddled with holes. Worry eats away at you. You start worrying about your final coming up, the failing the class, then letting your group down, then not spending enough time on other classes, then failing those classes, then thinking of retaking classes which sets graduation further which puts your wedding further which puts (; other things ;) further which puts kids further.... etc. Just stop. Worrying is not solving. Tackle the one issue if you can, and move on. If, at that moment, you can't do anything about it, there is no point in worrying. It doesn't help anything.

Again, just breathe.